change

I want to challenge the idea of changing someone. Because everyone says its hard to change once you've been so accustomed to who you are. I am quite happy with who I am, but some things never change from when I was younger and that is me and relationships. I have grown some, but I still have the " my way or the highway" idea in relationships. OK! wtf am I talking about relationships when I'm not even in one??? So I've canceled on all the guys that are pursuing me, but there's this one and I don't know if he likes me but I also don't know if I should like him >.< oppa ="]And to think about it "why did i get mad???" Its the old me coming back >.< Anyway I do a lot for him, more than for other guys, I brought food to his work and I'm making him dinner this weekend(which he wanted to postpone) but get this, this is all a friendly matter... We are failing to mention if these are dates or anything.. so thats why I thought he liked me bc hes agreeing with it. But sometimes he does stupid things like ask his co worker to come along, I'm like uhh its suppose to be me and you! lol whatever I'm just being selfish, thats why I want to change that about myself! I really do like the me a few months ago, just ignoring guys. its so hard. I always jump in conclusion and think about it till my brains are fried! why can't I just go with the flow. Why do i have to like someone at this time. GOSH GUYS! WHAT CAN YOU DO!